You wanna know something weird?
Too bad, I'm gonna tell you anyway.
I realized quite a while ago that most of the time I only write about the shiny side of life on this blog. I actually have another blog that acts as my journal; it's one that I can only access and contains my raw feelings, no matter what they are. But this blog? Most of the time, it only has the shiny side up. But let me tell you: life with Shipleys is not always shiny. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I were to just write whatever I want, any time I want.
That's scary.
It's hard to put yourself out there. It's hard to write the truth all the time. I can't even count the number of draft posts I have, just waiting to be published, but I am too scared to do it. To talk about the un-shiny things (un-shiny: not a real word). But what am I really afraid of? Judgement? Rejection? Hmmmm. Something to ponder.
Maybe I'll try to write a little more truth in the future. Maybe I'll stick my toe in the virtual pool and test the waters. But in the meantime, life with the Shipleys marches on.
I'm always a little afraid of judgement myself. More than that I'm afraid of the dreaded 'people feeling sorry for me'.
ReplyDeleteI like those stories though. Its the raw rough days that get us from one shiny spot to another. It's rare that I blog the hard days too. For the reasons above, but mostly because in the long run, when I'm walking down memory lane, I'd rather remember the shiny. But the one bright spot in sharing your hardships and trials, is lending a bit of validation to the feelings of the rest of us. You know? Like, "Hey, she has hard times too like me. So I'm not crazy!" At least, that's what I feel like when I read about someones raw feelings on things.
Love, love your blog and every story you tell, shiny or otherwise. :)